The Impossible Decision.

How do you make a decision that decides the rest of your life? An impossible decision. I’m now over a year post-op (time flies when your life isn’t controlled by a toxic mega-colon) and I’m at the stage when my surgeon is hovering over that scalpel again. My first surgery was a subtotal colectomy that […]

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Let’s​ Get Personal.

Before I delve into this… Mum, Dad or any of my family, please don’t read any further, I’m not sure I can handle the awkwardness over the dinner table…  One of the most common questions I get is ‘can you still have sex?’ and I find this is a weird question. Last I checked, your […]

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University As An Ostomate.

At university, you’re either drunk or hungover (there is no in-between). For some it’s the first time living away from mum and dad. It’s your first time attempting to do a food shop; the main staple being a kilo bag of pasta of course! Oh, and you’ll be horrified at the fact you have to […]

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Grateful.

It’s been a while since I sat down to write and I want to say I’ve been busy with meaningful things but mostly it’s been lying in the sun, and the second season of Westworld thats been keeping me occupied. However, this week is pretty important to me because Trust Your Gut turns One. It’s […]

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Screaming Who You Are By Not Saying A Word.

Fashion is a huge part of our lives. I mean clothes are pretty important… I think it’s probably a little chilly to be walking around in your birthday suit  (especially in England… Even in summer).  What we wear can show our personality before we’ve even opened our mouths! From the pair of jeans you live […]

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I Am Different.

I haven’t written in a while and that’s because I’ve been having too much fun! Rosie and I have been attached at the hip (well stomach) for 3 months now, and although I’ve had my wobbles, overall life has been amazing! But something that has resonated with me throughout all this fun is what I […]

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A Rekindled Love.

I’m sorry I’m not talking about boys… I’m talking about FOOD! My grandmother always used to say ‘’the way to anyone’s heart is through their stomach’’. We all have our food memories. They can be anything from a super fancy dinner where the portions are so tiny you need a magnifying glass to see them, […]

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Being Colon-less.

Here I am 4 weeks post surgery! When I think about all the crap I put up with before I was rescued from a colon that waged war upon me in comparison to ostomy life, it’s ridiculous! I keep asking myself ”what the hell was I doing?!” and ”how did I let myself get so […]

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The Irony.

Well Fuck… That’s probably the best way to describe the last two weeks.  I’m currently sat writing this staring out of my hospital window with six little holes in my stomach, shitting into a bag… Weird right?! My whole body is swollen beyond belief, battered and bruised. I’ve gone up about six dress sizes from […]

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Clarity.

It’s safe to say I never thought I’d be writing this post! How did I go from a perfectly healthy young woman to spending more time in hospital than your average 90 year old? It seems ridiculous doesn’t it!? One day I was just bumbling along as we all do, happy as Larry and then […]

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